Dirty, dirty

the more I get to you
the more I hate myself
this crown of a thousand stars
kept on my head
to remember that you're the one I want
but you don't even look at me

as a saint usually says to the devil
I say to you
leave me now, just leave
or this might get very dangerous
but I know
I am all that I wished not to be
and you are
you are what I want you to be

let me kill myself now
it's never too late
I will never be anyone, anyone at all
my thoughts are rotten
my love decayed
my faith, my faith is lost
and I'm dirty, so dirty
so fucking dirty
as the moon up in the sky
where our dreams use to sleep
while the sun dies
in the vast ocean
to keep us far away from heaven
to keep me far away from you!

and for now, I only know
it was never the way I wanted
it was never the right thing for me to do
cause all we are
is a scar in God's ass