living in the name of myself

all that is forbidden, all that u dislike, all that might never be true, all the stupid things u might know are here!! Welcome my friend, to the insane world of myself

quinta-feira, março 15, 2007

You Have A Type B+ Personality

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

sábado, fevereiro 03, 2007

Dear Katja

As some might know, I'm a Hell of Eurovision Fan, even yesterday some greek said that I'm sick about it, when I could tell them the precise year of one of their songs when to eurovision...
But what I really want with this post is to show one of the best singers that went to eurovision, she went 3 times and had never won, in my humble opinion she should had won at two times and achieved a second place.
So without further adu I give you Katja Ebstein, at her first appearance at eurovision.

sexta-feira, novembro 10, 2006

Dirty, dirty


the more I get to you
the more I hate myself
this crown of a thousand stars
kept on my head
to remember that you're the one I want
but you don't even look at me

as a saint usually says to the devil
I say to you
leave me now, just leave
or this might get very dangerous
but I know
I am all that I wished not to be
and you are
you are what I want you to be

let me kill myself now
it's never too late
I will never be anyone, anyone at all
my thoughts are rotten
my love decayed
my faith, my faith is lost
and I'm dirty, so dirty
so fucking dirty
as the moon up in the sky
where our dreams use to sleep
while the sun dies
in the vast ocean
to keep us far away from heaven
to keep me far away from you!

and for now, I only know
it was never the way I wanted
it was never the right thing for me to do
cause all we are
is a scar in God's ass

Andromeda's secrets


Let me give you a slice of my world
you won't deny me anymore
you ... you little whore

I'll drop off of all of my promises
putting them on a seashell
and sent it down to hell

fly with me and show me the way
your special and own way
cause today, it's going to be different
I'll wait for you in the Scorpius constellation
to drop our mistakes in someone's coffin
and make it our own little secret

the day has gone dark
I've no lovers arc
and no light to guide us

why it has to go so wrong for us?
can you see any bright light for us?
I guess not

I'm just as blind as you are now
but why can you love me anymore?
and be the one I adore?
what do you hide behind that door?
where do you scream and laugh?
show me where it hurts and I will apease you

as the world goes on to meet its end
on the next bend
I still hope to guide you once more
on my next dream
cause I'm the one for you
not to this world
only for you
my little secret

terça-feira, novembro 07, 2006

drag me home



drag me home
I'm all alone with my secrets
I can't be what I want to be

drive me home
I'm waiting for the final sound
to find a place where I can finaly sleep

take me home
I'm too much afraid of the sun
its light is starting to blind this fragile eyes

guide me to my home, sweet home
there I will find my destiny
in an enmpty dark room
with whole my mistakes I'd made thru out my life

a poem


to tell you this story
I'm not the right person
'cause the sky may look peaceful
but my heart still aches
with some old love storm

just take it as it is
and don't go further than this
the night it's cold
and my heart is old
as you love is not as you told

swing and rock out
to the sound of the thunders
this love of mine is not for real
and you won't feel it even if you want to
cause this world ain't for us

and when a child cries
the clouds will send us rain
and when a child smiles
God will show us the sun
so bright as anyone had ever saw it

and when my heart bleeds
I wish I could bury this love for good

Dead Bugs


dead bugs, you won't fool us anymore
those tricks you had done
are going to burn your little legs

and oh my, they are really dead
and I'm not feeling happy
eveything just makes me sick

and my dead bugs are gone
and I... I'm left all alone
with all these silent words to write
to write another poem of my life

deep true and fragile blue


Deep true
was never untrue
in the sky
made of goodbyes

my fragile blue
I never really got into you
as the nasty sin
will never win

quarta-feira, julho 12, 2006

Toda's Fortune (is love included?)

You will be fortunate in everything

segunda-feira, julho 10, 2006

today's fortune (well at least I try...)

You are never selfish with your advice or your help

sábado, julho 08, 2006

Today's Fortune (How I wish it...)

Generosity and perfection are your everlasting goals

quarta-feira, julho 05, 2006

Today's Fortune (I'm waiting .... and waiting ... over and over again...)

You will have some wonderful new experiences

Tomorrow never dies


Darling I'm killed
I'm in a puddle on the floor
Waiting for you to return
Oh what a thrill
Fascination gallore
How you tease, how you leave me to burn

It's so deadly my dear
The power of having you near
Until the day
Until the world falls away
Until you say there'll be no more goodbyes
I see it in your eyes
Tomorrow never dies

Darling you've won, its no fun
Martinis, girls, and of guns
Its murder on our love affair
But you bet your life every night
While you chase the morning light
Your'e not the only spy out there

It's so deadly my dear
The power of wanting you near
Until the day
Until the world falls away
Until you say there'll be no more goodbyes
I see it in your eyes
Tomorrow never dies

Until the day
Until the world falls away
Until you say there'll be no more goodbyes
I see it in your eyes

Until the day
Until the day
Until the day

History repeating


The word is about, there's something evolving,
whatever may come, the world keeps revolving
They say the next big thing is here,
that the revolution's near,
but to me it seems quite clear
that it's all just a little bit of history repeating

The newspapers shout a new style is growing,
but it don't know if it's coming or going,
there is fashion, there is fad
some is good, some is bad
and the joke is rather sad,
that its all just a little bit of history repeating..

and I've seen it before..
and I'll see it again..
yes I've seen it before..
just little bits of history repeating

Some people don't dance,
if they don't know who's singing,
why ask your head, it's your hips that are swinging
life's for us to enjoy
woman, man, girl and boy,
feel the pain, feel the joy
aside set the little bits of history repeating..
just little bits of history repeating..

and I've seen it before..
and I'll see it again..
yes I've seen it before..
just little bits of history repeating

Today's Fortune (true and false)

You are kind-Hearted and hospitable cheerful and well liked

terça-feira, julho 04, 2006

Vukovi umiru sami


Tišina k'o sidro veže mrak
U meni polako kopni strah
Ovaj ljubav je bila proviđenje
Nije ovo moje vrijeme

Do zore je ostao još koji sat
A vani nemir, k'o da je rat
Oblačim kaput i odlazim
Da sve zaboravim

I opet Dunavom plove brodovi
Ti više za mene ne brini
K'o lišće sam, vjetar me raznosi
Vukovi umiru sami

I opet Dunavom plove brodovi
Ti više za mene ne brini
K'o lišće sam, vjetar me raznosi
Vukovi umiru sami

Tišina k'o sidro veže mrak
U meni polako kopni strah
Oblačim kaput i odlazim
Da sve zaboravim

I opet Dunavom plove brodovi
Ti više za mene ne brini
K'o lišće sam, vjetar me raznosi
Vukovi umiru sami

(Dunavom, Dunavom, Dunavom)

I opet Dunavom plove brodovi
Ti više za mene ne brini
K'o lišće sam, vjetar me raznosi
Vukovi umiru sami

K'o lišće sam, vjetar me raznosi
Vukovi umiru sami

If I had your love



If I had your love
You would be what most inspires me
Sacred soul, fantasy, brightest light
Guiding me on wings

You would be the heart inside me
What I'd wish on a star
All to me, that is what you are

If I had your love
I could live my dream
Flying high above everything
If I had your love
You would light my world
That would be enough
If I had your love

Oh... if I held you close
Feeling your heart beat beside me
Fast asleep, wide awake, every step
Every move I make

If I had your love
I could live my dream
Flying high above everything
If I had your love
You would light my world
That would be enough
If I had your love

If I had your love
I'd live out my dream
Flying high above
Oh yeah...

If I had your love
I could live my dream
Flying high above everything

If I had your love
You would light my world
That would be enough
If I had your love

Cool Vibes



Don't want you to lead me to the dark
Don't need you to tear my heart apart
Don't do that, though people say that you're my enemy
I know you can set me free (Oh oh...)

Don't want you to come so close to me
Don't need you to blow my fantasy
But I know that you are livin' far beyond those lies
I can see the danger rise in your eyes

Cool vibes, why don't you kill me?
Cool vibes, why don't you turn your eyes away?
Can't you see we're free to die?
Cool vibes, all we can do is fight and pray

Cool vibes, why don't you thrill me? (Cool vibes)
Cool vibes, why don't you kill me?
All that I can see are shadows of my destiny (Oh oh...)

Don't want you to make me feel afraid
Don't need you to take away the hate
But I know that you will break the seal of mystery
Leave it to my fantasy, what will be?

Cool vibes, why don't you kill me?
Cool vibes, why don't you turn your eyes away?
Can't you see we're free to die?
Cool vibes, all we can do is fight and pray (Oh oh...)

Cool vibes, why don't you thrill me? (Cool vibes)
Cool vibes, why don't you kill me?
All that I can see are shadows of my destiny

Stay close to me, infinity
Enigma's what we share
But I don't care
You'll be there

Cool vibes, why don't you kill me? (Cool vibes)
Cool vibes, why don't you turn your eyes away?
Can't you see we're free to die?
Cool vibes, all we can do is fight and pray
(For some broken heroes)

Cool vibes, why don't you thrill me? (Cool vibes)
Cool vibes, why don't you kill me? (Cool vibes)
All that I can see are shadows of my destiny

Today's fortune (another day another joke)

You are always welcome in any gathering

domingo, julho 02, 2006

Today's Fortune (the joke was on me)

You are the center of every group's attention

Passive agressive


It's in your reach
Concentrate
It's in your reach
Concentrate
If you deny this
Then it's your fault
That God's in crisis
He's over

It's in your reach
Concentrate
It's in your reach
Concentrate
If you deny this
Then it's your fault
That God's in Crisis
He's over

Every time I rise I see you falling
Can you find me space inside your bleeding heart
Every time I rise I see you falling
Can you find me space, find me space

It's in your reach
Concentrate
It's in your reach
Concentrate
If you deny this
Then it's your fault
That God's in Crisis
He's over

Every time I rise I see you falling
Can you find me space inside your bleeding heart
Every time I rise I see you falling
Can you find me space inside your bleeding heart
It falls apart
It falls apart
Falls apart

Every time I rise I see you falling
Can you find me space inside your bleeding heart
Every time I rise I see you falling
Can you find me space inside your bleeding heart
It falls apart
It falls apart
Falls apart

Today's Fortune (don't make me laugh)

Versatility is one of your outstanding traits

sábado, julho 01, 2006

Yes, it's true

Strong and bitter words indicate a weak cause

sexta-feira, junho 30, 2006

River Deep Mountain High



When I was a little girl
I had a rag doll
Only doll I've ever owned
Now I love you just the way
I loved that rag doll
But only now my love has grown

And it gets stronger, in every way
And it gets deeper, let me say
And it gets higher, day by day

And do I love you my oh my
Yeah river deep mountain high
If I lost you would I cry
Oh how I love you baby, baby, baby, baby

When you were a young boy
Did you have a puppy
That always followed you around
Well I'm gonna be as faithful as that puppy
No I'll never let you down

Cause it grows stronger, like a river flows
And it gets bigger baby, and heaven knows
And it gets sweeter baby, as it grows

And do I love you my oh my
Yeah river deep, mountain high
If I lost you would I cry
Oh how I love you baby, baby, baby, baby

If I lost you would I cry
Oh how I love you baby, baby, baby, baby

I love you baby like a flower loves the spring
And I love you baby just like Tina loves to sing
And I love you baby like a school boy loves his pet
And I love you baby, river deep mountain high
Oh yeah you've gotta believe me
River Deep, Mountain High
Do I love you my oh my, oh baby
River deep, mountain high
If I lost you would I cry
Oh how I love you baby, baby, baby, baby

quinta-feira, junho 29, 2006

Crucify



Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I wanna spit in their faces
Then I get affraid what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach
I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now.

I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Just what God needs
One more victim

Why do we crucify ourselves
Every day I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being in chains

Got a kick for a dog beggin' for love
I gotta have my suffering
So that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter
He says will you ever learn
You're just an empty cage girl if you kill the bird

I've been looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Got enough guilt to start
My own religion

Why do we crucify ourselves
Every day I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being in chains

Please be
Save me
I cry

Looking for a savior in these dirty streets
Looking for a savior beneath these dirty sheets
I've been raising up my hands
Drive another nail in
Where are those angels
When you need them

Why do we crucify ourselves
Every day I crucify myself
Nothing I do is good enough for you
Crucify myself
Every day I crucify myself
And my heart is sick of being in chains

Why do we ......
chains ...
Crucify ourselves
Everyday

Never going back again
Crucify myself again
You know
Never going back again to
Crucify myself
Everyday

Daddy Cool


She is crazy like a fool
What about it Daddy cool
She is crazy like a fool.
What about it Daddy cool?
I'm crazy like a fool.
What about it Daddy Cool?

Daddy Daddy Cool
Daddy Daddy Cool
Daddy Daddy Cool
Daddy Daddy Cool.

She is crayz like a fool.
What about it Daddy cool?

Daddy Daddy Cool
Daddy Daddy Cool

She is crazy about her Daddy
Oh
she believes in him
She loves her Daddy

She is crazy like a fool.
What about it Daddy cool?

Daddy Daddy Cool
Daddy Daddy Cool. . .

quarta-feira, junho 28, 2006

Eye




I lie, I wait
I stop, I hesitate
I am, I breathe
I meant, I think of me

Is it any wonder I can't sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found peace through you?

Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself be damned
Turn away from light

It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough

I taste, I love
I come, I bleed enough
I hate, I'm not
I was, I want too much

Is it any wonder I can't sleep?
All I have is all you gave to me
Is it any wonder I found peace through you?

Turn to the gates of heaven, to myself be damned
Turn away from light

It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch
It's not enough, just a touch

Addio, adieu, auf Wiederseh'n, goodbye

Nunca é fácil dizer adeus, principalmente quando mal ainda dissemos olá, quando sentimos que há muito para dizer, muito para sonhar e viver. Não é fácil partir, deixar tudo para trás, quando ainda estamos agarrados ao que tencionamos deixar. Não é fácil ir embora, mas também não é fácil ficar quando sentimos que o tempo chegou ao fim.

Um adeus é doloroso, mas o pior é quando dizemos várias vezes adeus por termos continuado a voltar atrás para os retirar, ou nunca dizer adeus, mas saber que o silêncio que ficou significa um adeus eterno...

Today's joke

You are broad minded and socially active.